27.4.17

I am Trapped





My unintentional three-month hiatus is over. If you thought I forgot bout you, think again.


Let me just re-express that this hiatus was never planned it kind of just happened, you probably think I’m lying and rightly so, I have had many opportunities to post something but instead I neglected my blog completely.

Apologises.

But it was a mixture of laziness and complete writers block but since I have been gone so long I do have some pretty cool updates.

#1. I got a job, finally. Not the job I intended to get because I had other places in mind but I’m still grateful. I won’t reveal it on here just because, but it is a very popular, very cheap, very big retail store in England and America (I think)

#2. I’m still 16. But I won’t be in a month’s time. I plan on getting a rainbow cake. (May 31st don’t forget guys ;)

#3. My Instagram plan failed in a horrific mess. I planned on having a cute page filled with pictures that were posted regularly but that plan literally collapsed in on itself.

#4. I plan on abandoning every moral I have. I promised to myself that I would stay loyal to the Android phone crew and stick to having a Samsung phone and I do currently but I plan on getting an iPhone next.

What can I say, although the IOS updates will be annoying and iPhones break so easily, the camera is amazing, the snapchat is better and you can get an iPhone case for cheap LITERALLY ANYWHERE. Literally any retail store.

Also the more expensive iPhone cases are beautiful, if you wanted to get something like a Marble Samsung Case it can’t be a lesser known Samsung like a J5, it has to be the latest like the S8. With iPhones, all their phones are widely known and you can get a gorgeous case for literally any of them.

Anyways, I’m getting side-tracked.

You’re probably wondering what the hell the title of this post is about.

It kind of originated from a Religious studies class I just had, like literally an hour ago.

I’m typing this at school on word and the environment is very loud.

The religious studies class was about ethical egoism and it focused on Max Stirner (a Philosopher) and we someone got onto the idea of what life would be like without any laws, rules, or social norms that we have collectively imposed as a society.

Some went with the obvious answer:

Corrupt.

 
But my friend was puzzled when I said, “It would be better”
 
Let me explain.
I put down on paper that it could go one of two ways, chaotic or just, better and I do know that people would utilize the freedom they have and become completely ungovernable and just cause terror but for others like me, it would be complete bliss, no social norms, no fears of what people think and no obligation to go to school.
With that, I would leave, maybe not permanently but anything can happen.
I feel trapped, in a bubble I cannot escape.
It’s not that I’m too lazy to escape, I just can’t. I’m held back by school, no money, no permission to leave and no one I can leave with because let’s admit it, It’s a naïve idea.
I want to go somewhere, no place in mind but just somewhere, anywhere.

wanderlust

ˈwɒndəlʌst/

noun

wanderlust

a strong desire to travel.

"a man consumed by wanderlust"


Without rules or anything, I’d take myself and I’d get into a car or a coach or a train and I’d just go, live somewhere new.
A new environment with new people and maybe sit in a field and read.
Or just go to a close coffee shop, order a drink, and sit and look outside the window at people passing by, wondering what thought is occupying their mind at that very moment.
I think about this all time and it makes me sad because to be honest, I’m not living the life I want right now and I only have one which makes it even worse.
You’re probably all thinking,

“You have so many years to lead the life you want”

Yes, I do but I want to use every year, every minute and every second I have to lead the best life I can.
But that’s not seen as realistic, is it? Nope.
Instead, revise for exams.
Go to work.
Etc.
Maybe everyone is secretly like that because that’s what I think, I think that a majority of people dislike the position they are in at this current moment and would rather be somewhere else.
It’s hard to accept that we can’t escape but it’s harder to accept that, that’s our reality.
I just want to get away from the environment I’m in, maybe because of stress but it’s more to do with a powerful curiosity.
I read a quote somewhere but I cannot find it anymore but it said something along the lines of –

“The whole world is your home, don’t forget to explore it”


My heart is so full,
Full of love I want to give,
Full of impulsive curiosity to just get up and leave.
I hope one day I have the courage to act upon my desires.

Thank you for reading.

Liyah.

9.1.17

RIP My Blog (Crucial Advice For Bloggers)

So...
As you can see, my blog has changed, again.
It was formerly "The Terrible Tales of An Awkward Teen" but now it has changed to "Liyah's World"
The reason behind this is,
the other day I noticed on my site instead of the banner and the welcome picture and my button showing up etc. there was a white exclamation mark in a grey box.
I was really puzzled by this and tried to look up ways to fix it and I found a blogger who ran across the same problem.
Pretty much the only way to fix it was to remove the pictures causing error and replace it.
I was really heartbroken by this because I had someone design my blog for me and I didn't really have much knowledge of how to go about changing my blog title and such so I used picmonkey since it was the only thing I could think of.
I don't think it turned out too bad but I will do more to completely remove all the errors, this includes making a whole new button.
I tried to contact the designer of my blog since she designs very well but her blog had completely disappeared and I tried everything to try and search for her but it seems she has vanished.
It was very distressing.
So after a lot of consideration I decided to re-brand my blog name to "Liyah's World" because I felt like previously having the name "Awkward Teen" and having a cartoon as my Google+ picture felt kind of.. childish so I have taken a step in what I believe to be a better direction.
My URL is still the same and I don't really plan on changing it, for now anyways.
But this whole change is what inspired the title "RIP My Blog"
In a way to commemorate the two good years that I was known as Awkward Teen :)

Anyways onto the advice, it comes from the story I just told and I believe its pretty worthy to know especially if you have just started blogging but it is also useful for current bloggers too.
Make it your mission to know how blogging works 
I should've known this sooner but I've learnt my lesson now, if you are going to get your blog designed by someone, make sure you are certain they are going to stay contactable just in case anything goes wrong and also make sure you know how to do things just in case they disappear such as creating headers and things like that because if you just rely on the designer and you have errors you don't know how to work out, you'll be left in quite a sticky situation.
Blogger simplifies how to do things pretty well so don't worry, you wont have to take an extensive course on how to use blogger or anything but if you do not know the basics now and you plan on blogging and running your own website, make sure you know.

Thanks for reading.

8.1.17

What I Got For Christmas+ My Plans For 2017


HELLO 2017

Everyone seems to be happy that its over but why?
I never saw a new year as anything else other than just a new year.
Sure 2016 was kinda sucky but it being over doesn't mean anything.
Its not like all the problems and the celebrity deaths have floated away.
To be honest I just see a new year as a constant reminder that we're ageing another year and getting older and closer to death.

Woah that got dark fast..
ANYWAYS I didn't come on here to be a downer, happy new year!
Christmas this year for me was definitely better than last years, I tried to be more festive and smile more since I'm normally a Grinch during the festive season and it turned out okay!
I never really want a lot of gifts, I normally just ask for one from both parents and they were both money.
The money I got for my mum I used for shopping, came up to a total of £130 and I got £120 from my dad and £20 from my aunt.
My friend also got me the book I really wanted which was Whiskey, Words and A Shovel II.
It was an amazing book

As far as resolutions go, I don't actually have any because I never actually complete them but I did make a cute little life choice.

**Insert Drumroll** 

I bought a journal!


I promised myself I'd actually write in it and I feel like I will, I have a lot of thoughts in my head, my mind is constantly racing so I feel like having a canvas to spill all my thoughts onto will help.

So that's my plan for 2017 as well as being happy and stressing less.
Not really a resolution, more like a life plan.
This post was short but hey, it was something right?
I hope your 2017 is starting out okay and thanks for reading!

10.12.16

Christmas Book Recommendations


Hey!
So if you follow me on Instagram (which you totally should btw, its liyah_ashley) you would've seen that I posted a picture of two books, calling them my "Winter reads"
They were called:
  • "Whiskey, Words, and A Shovel" by R.H. Sin
  • "Born to Love, Cursed to Feel" by Samantha King
Currently I'm half way through both books and I love them so much!
They're poems and relate to so many situations such as "singleism" and "unrequited love"
M Y L I F E
But also self-empowerment and self love, things like that.

I've bookmarked so many poems in both books because I love them THAT much
At first I was going to buy "Milk and Honey" by Rupi Kaur but then I saw the poems from WWS and Born to love, Cursed to feel and I fell completely in love.

Just for a little preview I picked a poem from both books so you guys can see what they're like.
A page from Whiskey, Words, and A Shovel                      A page from Born to love Cursed to Feel

Lovely aren't they.
Yeah, I'm not a book reviewer in any way so I cant really find the words to express just how much I love these books.
I literally feel so empowered after reading them and so many of the situations and emotions that are expressed through the poems are things I can relate to and things I've been through.
(At only 16, I know)
These poems teach me things, how I should love myself more and I definitely will be purchasing more of the books from R.H. Sin as he has more books available.
Born to love, Cursed to Feel is Samantha Kings first book but I look forward to more books from her coming out.
Also fun fact, both of the Authors are in a relationship in real life and they're relationship is beyond precious.
I know R.H. Sin doesn't really associate himself with Whiskey, Words, and A Shovel anymore due to some issues with the publisher, he focuses mainly on Whiskey Words, and A Shovel II, Rest In the Mourning (WHICH I WILL BUY I SWEAR OF IT) and his third and final volume of Whiskey, Words, and A Shovel which is coming out next year.

But yeah, I think that's all I have to say for now, I am aware that I am posting less frequently and I'm really sorry, I haven't given up, college is just so much work like its just essay after essay and assessment after assessment but I whenever I can I will try and post and I'm still active so you can still comment questions and feedback and suggestions because I still do check my blog everyday.
I'm planning on posting my 2016 Christmas list soon so stay tuned for that!

Here are the UK links for the books if you wanted to buy them and if you live in the US its much easier to find in places like Barnes and Noble (Check R.H. Sins Instagram for discount codes)

Whiskey, Words, and A Shovel- SOLD OUT
(Cheapest place I found)



5.11.16

I GOT AN INSTAGRAM


I feel like you guys should know this.

So

After persuasion from my friends I decided to get Instagram or "innygram" as I call it and so far I really like it!

I'm trying to make it look super aesthetic like and "attempt" to look like a model with a legit photographer and so far that's going well-ish.

Since you guys don't know what I look like, you now have the chance since my Instagram is 95% me, so if you would like to follow me and see what I well and truly do look like.

Feel free :)

26.10.16

Halloween Tag w/ Pastel Skies

Hey!
So recently I got contacted by Pastel Skies asking if I wanted to do a fun Halloween inspired tag and of course I said yes!
She found some fun questions we could both do and at the end I'll link to her blog so you can check out the answers to her questions :)

I love Halloween, sadly I don't really celebrate because my neighbourhood isn't the "safest" and knowing me I'd probably fight the neighbours for not giving me any candy but that doesn't mean I don't like seeing pictures of people celebrating online!
Although seeing everyone lose their heads over Starbucks's Pumpkin spice latte's coming back out is quite irritating but this post isn't suppose to be a rant so lets get onto the questions.

...

1. What is your favourite Halloween movie?
Addams Family Values, definitely.
Always makes me laugh, I could literally watch it back to back.
Fun fact: my favourite character is of course Wednesday Addams and as much as I love the first movie, I always found the sequel much better.
2. On a scale from 1-10, how much do you enjoy Halloween?
A 6 probably, I don't go trick or treating or dress up because I'm boring and lazy but I do love the Halloween decorations and Halloween inspired food that comes out.
3. What is your 
best Halloween memory?
I attempted to go trick or treating with my cousins once dressed as bloody mary but I was in a rich neighbourhood and we could see into the peoples houses and they seemed really annoyed with like...life so we didn't knock on so we got no candy but to make me feel better, my cousins dropped a pack of polos into my bag.
Thanks cousins.
4. Have you always been a Halloween lover?
I guess?
I'm more of a Halloween food lover (;
5. How do you get into the Halloween spirit?
I watch Dan&Phils spooky gaming week and look at memes.
Here's an example.


6. Favo
urite Halloween decorations?
Jack-o-lanterns
7. Favo
urite halloween/fall scent?
The smell of death.

Jokes, I have no clue.
8. Favo
urite halloween candy?
I don't really have one?
I like Halloween but I'm not some huge Halloween head, candy is candy ;p
9. Vampires
, werewolves or zombies?
VAMPIRES
10. What is your
 weirdest fear?
I only have one.
B I R D S
They're absolute demons.
11. Would you rather go to a Halloween party or go trick or treating?
Halloween party of course, my friends and family rarely have parties but when they do.
ITS
A
BIG
DEAL

(omg whilst I was typing this, I just found out that my family is having a party on Saturday, YES!)
12. If you could have a spooky halloween pet (black cat, owl, bat, rat, wolf), what would you pick
I'd go for a wolf but not one that stays in my house, I'd want a huge , cute protector wolf that chills in the woods with its pack and visit me from time to time, especially if I need it to tear someone's throat out.

Haha...just kidding!

..not really..

But anyways, those were the questions and to be honest, they were really fun to answer!
For those who are reading you should definitely check out Pastel Skies's blog with her answers to the questions :)
The link to her blog is:
 http://pastelskiesx.blogspot.co.uk/
Her layout is gorgeous and her posts are amazing!
(I love how pretty the pictures she takes are, like seriously <3)

22.10.16

What Being a Blogger Means To Me Tag


I'm back!

Wow its been about three months hasn't it but blame college!
I started college back in September and the essays and constant homework are literally KILLING ME.
Honestly the only perks I can think of from being in college are the free periods and the student discounts.
Making friends has been relatively easy (thank you extrovertism) and I think I have consumed about 60 slices of pizza in the two month.
I'm not even joking.
Moving on, I had an idea to make a tag called the "What Being A Blogger Means To Me" Tag
but then I remembered, what if I didn't create the idea? so I searched the blogosphere and I didn't find anything so I'm guessing its not a tag made by anyone else?
I don't know though so if I did create this tag, yay.
If I didn't then all credit to the person who did.

I came up with these 9 questions and I'm going to try and answer them to the best of my ability, so here we go!


When did you start blogging?
Friday the 13th Of March 2015
Why did you start blogging?
To share stories, connect with other people, I generally wanted to see if anyone out there was interested in my quirky little anecdotes and I guess people were :)
Any regrets?
Not one, the only issue I have is uploading consistently.
I really suck at that.
Best thing about being a blogger?
Reading comments and I guess, the doors it may open for me :) I never saw myself doing a review on nail polish but that happened so who knows!
Read all about the nail polish review here:
"You'll Never Guess What Happened..."
Hardest thing about being a blogger?
UPLOADING.CONSISTENTLY
Actually scratch that, uploading itself is hard.
Not the actual pressing of the button "Publish" but coming up with fun ideas and what to talk about every so often.
Since I don't have a specific thing I talk about like makeup or fashion, its pretty challenging.
Where do you see your blog in 10 years?
With a different name hopefully!
Don't really want to be referred to as "Awkward teen" at 26 years old but who knows!
I hope in 10 years my blog goes super far and not something I abandon; Hopefully not, by 26 I hope to be married or at least engaged and have my own baby, so I'll probably be doing baby clothes reviews or something.
Why is blogging important to you?
Well borrowing a quote from one of my favourite movies, The Fault In Our Stars:
"We all want to be remembered"
But unfortunately for me I don't just want to be remembered by my family when I eventually die I want to be remembered by more people that I inspired.
It's weird, I don't see myself doing an average run of the mill job such as a dentist or doctor or shopkeeper.
I want something interesting, something that will constantly keep me engaged, which is pretty hard to find because I get bored extremely quickly.
I want something that always involves change and I don't know where my blog will lead me but I'm praying that it gives me an opportunity to do something in the future that will make me happy.
Also blogging is important to me because I'm not talented, at all.
Some people are excellent artists or amazing at singing or super smart but I don't fit into any of those categories so for me to post something I find funny or interesting and see comments on how much it made someone's day or see an abundant amount of compliments, its a huge self-esteem builder, it just shows how much I don't need a particular "skill" to make an impact.
Has being a blogger inspired you in any way or taught you any skills?
In a way, I feel more inspired to get online more and explore but I haven't really been taught any skills or than how to use blogger and how to make cute thumbnails.
Has blogging allowed you to do anything you wouldn't have imagined yourself doing?
Reviews on products is one, I keep mentioning it but honestly I never imagined myself getting an email from a company asking if I wanted to test out their products.
I never knew how far my blog stretched out to other people but besides that, no not really, I've only been blogging for a year so nothing too life-changing has happened.
Yet.

But anyways that's it!
I hope you guys enjoyed this post and please, please, please feel free to take the questions and do your own "What Being A Blogger Means To Me" Tag, if you do, put your link in the comments and I'll be sure to read it! :)
Bye!